Friday Thoughts

It's Friday night and I'm watching basketball. What else would I be doing? My bracket is all messed up but that's not surprising. Since G'Town is out (I had them picked to win the whole thing) I'm really cheering for Xavier. I picked them because I love the name. I'm such a girl.

I've been working on my PEO stuff. I'm display chair for the upcoming convention. I'm proud of what I have planned, but I feel that it won't be good enough. It's probably because I'm consistently in the shadow of one of my best friends who is super woman of everything. People are thinking that if I'm friends with Trasy, I should be creative like her. I'm creative in my own way and I'm not sure it will be good enough. There's a meeting tomorrow morning. She didn't call me to see if I'm going. I think she wants to see me fail. I don't know why. Things have been strained since she went to a musical with some PEO sisters and I wasn't invited. She claims she thought I knew about it, but she had to know that I didn't. Normally it wouldn't bother me, but going to plays and musicals is what we do together. It would be like if I was going to the bar with a bunch of people and didn't ask Francine to go. I'm hurt more than anything. I think she's just showing me how it feels when you're not asked to do something. I think there has been times that I've done stuff and didn't ask her. I don't know. I'm being a baby, but I think every once in a while it's okay.

I had a melt down the other night. I think it was just everything. PEO, work, home - everything. I just couldn't take it any longer and started crying and couldn't stop. My dh was pretty understanding - considering he was part of the problem. I don't get that way very often - which is good because I hate it when it happens. It's just my pitty-party. I'll get over it, although it seems like this one is taking a little bit longer.

Since my dh and I have been together, he's really helped me get my finances in order. I've usually been able to do what I want and buy what I want (within reason). I'm very thankful to him for that. Well, we're a little tight right now. With fixing the car we just traded in, buying a new car (with an additional car payment we're not used to) and paying taxes, I'm on a budget and it sucks. I know that people are way worse off that I am (including my sister) but I still hate it. (Just part of the pitty-party).

I didn't even go to the gym tonight. I changed my clothes at work but decided I really didn't want to go. I came home and have been doing very little ever since. (I'm loving it) I'll get back into the swing of things tomorrow. Maybe I just needed a night to myself.

Well, I think that's enough bitching for one night. Thanks for listening. I feel better already.