Dude. I'm tired.
Now that I have that out of the way...
My best friend from work left today for vacation. Not just a few days...but an entire month. Yes, I know, she's going to have a great time - she's going to India for Pete sakes. This is all about me. She's my sounding board. Someone who gets what is going on at work and gets why I'm all twisted up. I know I'll be fine. I know this. But it's not easy. I'll see her in 28 days. That's not too long is it?
My birthday is coming up. I don't know how I feel about that. Usually my birthday is my favorite holiday. I like to call December my birthday month. It's all about me. This year it just seems like I'm just one more year closer to the big 4-0. That shouldn't bother me, but it does a little. It just another reminder that I'm not having kids. Now that is another subject that should be left for another time. I don't think I have the strength to go into that right now.
I am going out tomorrow night. Out to supper and then to a sports bar to watch a band. I'm going with my best friend. Just the two of us. I really didn't feel like inviting anyone else. The only other people I would want to invite are in Essex, Pittsville and Denver. It will be fun and by tomorrow night I'll be fine...drinking and forgetting. I come by that naturally!
I'm sorry - depressing huh. I guess that's okay because this is an outlet for me. Only two people will read this and they both love me and accept me for what I am! Thanks for that.
There is so much I need to do to get ready for the next couple weeks. I think I'll just go to bed. I'm tired.
Until tomorrow - when I'm in a better mood....
1 comment:
there are so many days i wish i was there with you.... know that i miss you, and i love you. and i'm thinking of you!
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